i dont celebrate my birthday bigtime. though for the past 26 years of my life i have my mother cooked me my favorite pancit but that was it. i dont spend much on my past birthdays, i am not into parties- i cannot afford. i buy myself gift that i can afford. for the past 5 years as an employee, i got to be surprised on my pre birthday.. that is something i love most before taking my birthday leave.
last year, my first birthday with husband in my life, i knew it would be big because he did all the cooking for my less than ten close friends who slept over and spent their time on my special day.. it was lovely, memorably beautiful for me.
this time, i was planning of going back to tagaytay, now that we have our yena. was planning of bringing our nephews and nieces all along.. our god mother being my fairy god mother promise her share.. on sunday, we will be celebrating my birthday at picnic grove with my daughter and lots of kids. i started dreaming how much fun it would be.
but then last night, hubby told me to call it off! there are lots of valid reasons he said - i understood BUT i got so emotional - my mood swung to farthest and i become the coldest from then until today.
i dont ask for parties.. for flowers.. for expensive gifts.. all i asked is a day in tagaytay with yena and the kids coz that would be happiest for me - but for whatever you said so! so be it.
i think i will just be spending my birthday alone.