Thursday, December 11, 2008
tonight would be the saddest for the month of december, coldest for the year. i am going to spend my night thinking of him, smelling our pillows that would remind me of him, hugging myself tight as if he's embracing me, talking to myself whispering iloveu as if he's tucking me to bed to sleep and putting yena down to sleep all by myself careful not to let her feel dad is not present for a night.
i am torturing myself intially now to make me feel frozen coz for tonight i will be numb. tonight will be a struggle to try myself to sleep the faster i could, but i have to! tomorrow will be a day to finally be with my missing piece! i will never be a puzzle solve without him.